Sunday, November 24, 2019

A Lazy Sunday...

I woke up around 10AM, feeling exhausted, immediately reaching for a cigarette and a cup of coffee. I managed to read Chapter 8 of "The Greatest Saleman in the World" by Og Mandino. I'm on Day 12 of 300 days, and so far I have successfully gone through the readings three times per day as prescribed in the book. I spent a very long time writing "morning pages", of which I'm on a three day streak.

I've been really struggling with morning routine lately, but aware that I want to make changes. I want to change the morning ritual from pressing the Snooze button for a full half hour, only for a quick shower and a rushed commute to work at my warehouse job.

I did manage to get in a 30 minute walk in the neighborhood, which will be a focus of mine for the next 30 days. Get in a daily walk, no matter what. Succeed at that, add pushups, squats, situps, etc.

I have a problem with procrastination, but I had a little insight this morning, realizing that my procrastination is actually a result of perfectionism. If I can't do it perfectly, I don't do it all. I remembered the Pareto principle, and I will constantly remind myself to shoot for 80%, not 100%. 80% is good enough. That's where I'm at.

I managed to get my dishes done, and some of the laundry done for the week, but otherwise, I haven't really attacked the messy house. I have messy habits. I also have messy kids.

Either way, I'm shooting for a comeback in my life. I'm grateful for just over 7 months of sobriety from alcohol. I'm grateful for almost two years since my last hospitalization for psychosis.

Tonight, I am going to the Louisville Recovery Sangha group, a Buddhist approach to addiction recovery. I used to go back when it was called Refuge Recovery, and I'm curious as to what the changes are. It's quite a drive. I wish we had more Buddhist groups out in the sticks.

Tomorrow begins a holiday week. I have Thursday off for Thanksgiving, and from there it's probably going to be non-stop overtime until January. I plan to endure the rest of the year, and look forward to the New Year as a time to implement resolutions.

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